i don't know..kind of having mixed feelings right now..I'm mad,sad and confused..i don't understand why I'm feeling this way..maybe if i break it down ill feel much better...just talk about anything that comes to mind...
[friends]..what is a friend really??..does anybody truley know??..i mean i think i have a little thought of what a friend is..well i don't..I'm not gon sit up here and try to lie..or make up some shit..cuz i don't know..the dictionary says "one attached to another by affection or esteem;serving a beneficial or helpful purpose"i mean is that really what a friend is??..i don't think there is a real definition of a friend..i mean can you really define your friend..i don't have any friends..friends are over rated..i mean i had friends at one time but they long gone..who needs friends when you have family..my best.friend is my sister;& my two "friends" are cousins.lls.[in].i don't need friends..family is all i need
[life]..what is life really..i mean you live & you die..what are you suppose to with it besides the "basic.s"..go to school,get good grades,graduate,go to college,dont drink or do drugs,graduate college,meet somebody,get a good government job,settle down,grow old together,and die..that's so lame and boring..if life was like that it wouldn't be worth living..if everybody was the same life would be dry..its the differences and unknown that makes life interesting.i wonder if Adam would have never taken a bite of the apple would life be better..they say if Adam would have never biten the apple there would be no violence,no sorrow,no pain,no grief,no wrong,no right.it would just be life..as a culture..or as humans we've become attracted to flaws and wrong doings its just how were built..if god was to transform this world into the "before the apple" world and let us keep the knowledge we have..we would die.[hypothetically]
[preference]..I'm a very sexual person but i haven't had that many sexual experiences..i prolly think about sex 12 hr.s a day...its like a bad song..once its in my head i cant get out..but lately i been thinking about this one particular person..i don't think of them in a sexual sense just about the feelings they give me..I'm not lusting or fantasizing about them,,there just on my mind constantly..and i dont have the slightest reason why..like i think its so weird that when they text or call me i get butterflies like crazy..& when i text or call them my stomach hurts because i don't know whats gonna happen..when i think about young.n i get a smile on my face..i don't know if its feelings or infatuation..like i truely don't know..i don't want to be with this person i just want to be around them constantly..like 24/7..i don't think I'm attracted to them but in the same breath there not ugly either....i don't know maybe its a phase..maybe ill get over it..I.D.K....
[love]..what is love exactly..I.D.K but i think love is selfless..self sacrificing..forgiving..deep..kind..everlasting..joy..pain..non-discriminating..happiness and blind..i don't think once you love somebody you cant just up and not love them anymore..just a little less.i presume..idk..i know i cant just stop loving somebody..its not in me I'm not built that way..im not larcen hearted..im actually emotional..VERY..i wear my heart on my sleeve..you can always tell how im feeling by my behavior..i don't know how to hide my emotions..i think im overly emotional..I.DK
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