Jus Writin'....

when did i become this ''green monster''..that's not apart of my nature..i don't get jealous..i don't let stuff eat at me..i wasn't built like that..jealously is a nasty emotion..or whatever it is..i know it's not nice.where does jealously come from? i guess it.s the sister of envy..one of the 7 deadly sins..jealously is like a seed,a seed planted in your mind & soul..its like cancer.it wont stop until it consumes you and make your life unbearable and miserable. Misery loves company.you want what someone else has.i wouldn't say that I'm out right jealous or envious,its just when i see people get things so easily with out working for it & i have too work my ass off for the little i do have.I'm not being ungrateful because i know I'm blessed.there are people way off worse than me.it's people who have homes but no heat or water or food or electricity.I'm fortunate enough to have all of that and more.i am so blessed that if i don't want to stay home i can leave and go to a family members house and fell at home with my own bed and t.v and all the things i need.they say friends are a blessing and if you are fortunate to have at lease 1 good friend through out yr life you blessed.well i know i am extra blessed because i have 3 friends who have stuck it out with me through the good and the bad the happy and the sad..and i love them to death.and as time progressed i considered them more like best friends..FAMILY now.but don't get me wrong i have met some people who i had gotten close to in college and i love them but i mean let's b honest i only knew them for a couple of months..naw I'm not going to sit up here and fake i consider them friends too..really good friends because they were there for me when i thought i had nobody in my corner and i love them for that and since the day we met they all came real.no one put up a front or kept secrets because the group was too real for that.nobody held there tongue we all said what we meant and meant what we said...i liked that it was like everybody was themselves no cut cards..raw love..i guess but everything ain't always what it seems..people seem to always show their true colors when your not looking..they say the best way to see a person is to not look at them...