.Apples&Women.

women are like apples on a tree.the best ones are at the top of the tree.the boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt.instead they get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't as good but easy.so the apples at the top think it's something with them but in all reality they're amazing!! they have to wait for the right guy to come along.the one who is brave enough to climb the top of the tree.

cares..

I'm finding it hard to care about anything these days in fact the only thing i do care about is the fact that i cant care about anything..seriously it worries me..i sometimes wonder if i gave less of a fuck would shit be allot easier.i tend to take shit to serious and to heart,and i can never figure out why.i think I've gotten better tho.little shit don't get to me as often,i just let it slide.then theirs stuff i truly want to let go..i mean truly but something inside me just cant.i have this don't care attitude but its always blind sided by my feelings and better judgement.like i know niggas out here Larsen-hearted and shouldn't be fucking with them but its something in me that doesn't want to believe it..something i me believing that there's a good side to everybody.which in most cases is true but some people are just too set in there own ways to realize when they have somebody who truly cares about them and don't want nothing but the best for them. but some people are just so selfish they don't see it....

if i could...

if i could catch a rainbow..i would do it just for you & share with you its beauty on the days you were feeling blue..if i could build a mountain you could call your very own a place to find serenity a place to be alone..if i could take your troubles..i would toss them into the sea...but all these things I'm finding are impossible for me..i cant build a mountain or catch a rainbow fair..but let me be what i know best a friend that's always there...
-anonymous

Fingers on tha keyboard...i guess,,

Um kind of bored jus um sitting thinking or whatever…what should I talk about? Idk.uhmmm…

-FRIENDs I guess. What exactly does that mean? We toss that word around too loosley..sort ov like LOVE..i think those are two very powerful and strong words but we really dont know how to use them & their true meaning...but uhmm Friend’s yeaa I don’t have many…I thought I did, but i later found out everybody is not ment to be your friends..yu have (3) kinds of friends..yu have yr LEAF friends..your BRANCH friends and your ROOTS friends..the LEAF friends stay for a season and is gone before the next..the BRANCH friend hangs in there with yu for a while but soon breaks off because the hold wasnt good enough..but the ROOT friend is there forever..stuck like glue..never letting go..a friend should understand self-sacrifice, it takes two to have a friendship…sorta like a relationship I guess. Friends love UNCODITIONALLY.friends don’t bring up past favors to pressure you into doing one, FRIENDS do things of the heart not of what you could do for them..friends are a blessing..if you have some that are .[TRUE].That’s great. And if you had some and lost them that’s all good too, you win some you loose some sometimes the very thing GOD is trying to tear us away from or free is from is the very things were so DESPERATE to hold on to..we need to learn to let go and let god.

-[Me], um I really don’t know, I think IM kind of a weirdo wear my heart on my sleeve and show each and every emotion that I am feeling..Im SUPER bad at hiding my feelings. [IF YOU T R U L Y KNOW ME]. Kind of a hotheaded loud mouth, um I can be a tad too goofy at times, which tends to annoy some people..[I kind of do it on purpose].lls.its ji like how i show my love sometimes..I don’t know wen to be quiet..Im VERY OPINIONATED! If I feel that I am right about something and your trying to prove me wrong, even if I am wrong I will DEFEND it to thee end. I think my weirdo ways, out going personality, and illuminating full of life antics attract people to me.Even though i dont like peole..not too many people have seen me mad, sad, or cry, I kinda have a protective field around me and is hesitant to let people in I wasn’t always like that it just sort of happened idk when though. I can count on both hands the "friends" that have seen me cry. -&nd I have considered A LOT of people friends..im kind of secretive I mean I share my feelings with my friends but only a select few know my "secrets"..Im still trying to learn how to differentiate friends from associates associates from enemies, and enemies from users.some one once told me that im too forgiving, that if someone killed me and I came back to life I would still be there friend..at that time I took it as a joke but as time went on that statement had become somewhat true.i guess i just think that theres a good side to EVERYBODY..I don’t like to repeat myself, I feel like I’m being dumbed down when i have to break things down and try to explain it in lames terms. I also kind of like when people think I’m dumb, some find it weird but I don’t. I love being doubted because when I speak my mind and say what mean and mean what I say the looks on their faces amaze me. A lot of people don’t know that I am actually very smart I just don’t apply myself, which is dumb in a sense..whatever enough of that.I had some friends that I wanted to be around constantly because of how much fun I had with them…but it was taken as me being to clingy..I mean i'm not afraid to admit dat I can b ah tad clingy. anyway uhm yea, I got a best friend. Well she’s more like my sister we been best friends for 7 years we have been through a lot.cried together mean we jus did whatever. But as we got older we’ve gotten way different I mean we still tight like glue -and I tell her everything but sometimes I feel like I really cant talk to her but sometimes I feel like she has no conversation for me. I mean wen we were younger the 2 3-hr conversations about nothing use to excite me. But I mean wen we get older so should our vewis on life. sometimes i feel like she puts me on the back burner for a lot of things and people and I feel best-friends don’t act like this. Idk that’s jus my thoughts, but me I always put people first which is why I think I be feeling so hurt wen I feel like I’ve been betrayed, let down or mistreated, idk why. I’ve always felt that way. Even though we’ve been friends for years we have never not communicated with each other. She’s still my best friend and we still clique. I love her too much to lose her as a friend.

Lately I’ve learned to not care because people are going to be who they are regardless of your feelings. I mean it’s hard to tell who’s really there for you and have your best interest a heart. Some people jus deal with you because they know the advantages of being your friend or being cool with you. Some people are fake with you for years, which is truly grimy you know what I mean? You know smiling faces sometimes pretend to be your friend, and show no traces of the evil that lurks within. You got to be careful these day’s....

love and happiness.,,

life is short so love carelessly,what is meant to be will always find its way,kiss with your eyes closed because the best things in life are unseen,remember every minute you spend unhappy is 60 seconds you will never get back..so live life..color outside the lines,live with no regrets,say what you mean and mean what you say..don't dwell on yesterday live in the now.......

:/..

Why is it easier for us to forgive an enemy than a friend? Is it because the ones we let close to our hearts hurt us the most?..Or the fact that a friend could actually hurt us that bad? Is it because we have no real connection with the ''enemy'' that when they come wrong it most come from what they've seen or heard?. Or is it that we know when an enemy comes to us it must b nothing but the truth because we dont run in the same circle?..i dont know......

Jus Writin'....

when did i become this ''green monster''..that's not apart of my nature..i don't get jealous..i don't let stuff eat at me..i wasn't built like that..jealously is a nasty emotion..or whatever it is..i know it's not nice.where does jealously come from? i guess it.s the sister of envy..one of the 7 deadly sins..jealously is like a seed,a seed planted in your mind & soul..its like cancer.it wont stop until it consumes you and make your life unbearable and miserable. Misery loves company.you want what someone else has.i wouldn't say that I'm out right jealous or envious,its just when i see people get things so easily with out working for it & i have too work my ass off for the little i do have.I'm not being ungrateful because i know I'm blessed.there are people way off worse than me.it's people who have homes but no heat or water or food or electricity.I'm fortunate enough to have all of that and more.i am so blessed that if i don't want to stay home i can leave and go to a family members house and fell at home with my own bed and t.v and all the things i need.they say friends are a blessing and if you are fortunate to have at lease 1 good friend through out yr life you blessed.well i know i am extra blessed because i have 3 friends who have stuck it out with me through the good and the bad the happy and the sad..and i love them to death.and as time progressed i considered them more like best friends..FAMILY now.but don't get me wrong i have met some people who i had gotten close to in college and i love them but i mean let's b honest i only knew them for a couple of months..naw I'm not going to sit up here and fake i consider them friends too..really good friends because they were there for me when i thought i had nobody in my corner and i love them for that and since the day we met they all came real.no one put up a front or kept secrets because the group was too real for that.nobody held there tongue we all said what we meant and meant what we said...i liked that it was like everybody was themselves no cut cards..raw love..i guess but everything ain't always what it seems..people seem to always show their true colors when your not looking..they say the best way to see a person is to not look at them...

i guess,.

undressing you with your clothes on.standing up while were laying down.temperatures hotter than fire and the heat has got me growing cold...so lets stop drop and roll together.cozy blankets,heavy eyes,secret desires,weak knees,heavy limbs,bodies touching,clinched fingers,arched backs,bitten lips,sweaty sheets,soft music,dark rooms,exotic sounds,temporary high,uncontrollable feeling.s in this humid paradise,.

''UHM..'',,

they say you are the company you keep...and birds of a feather flock together..but i think it.s rubbish...if you hang with thieves & don't steal does that make you a thief?.or if your a girl & hang with all dudes does that make you gay?. most of the time no,i mean i use to hang with fake Youngs' but i thought since we were friends i would be exempt from their fakeness.i mean i might have been but i don't know their private thoughts..i don't know what they truly thought,but i didn't stop fucking with them because that would have been fake of me..i didn't stop fucking with them until i felt shade was being thrown & the friendship could not be salvaged, i don't hang with allot of people because i don't like people or fully trust them..while most people have a circle of close friends i have a square [ME] [YONNIE]



[NAE'] [NE.NE]
my loves my BITCHE.s,my FAMILY..there the ONLY people who know me a little better than the rest..people only see what you allow them to see and know what you want them too.but these guys know me because time was put into our friendship's..we went threw HELL just to come out closer :)..i think i can honestly say ill be friends with these guys forever& a day!.We've grown so much closer since we first met..these guys are my family...1st family 2nd friends. I LOVE THEM TO DEATH! my friends..my loves my family.♥.

-Marleyy