Rambling Thoughts,,

i don't know where these feelings came from but there FREAKING me out..i know i don't have feelings for you or want to be with you i mean that's against my religion.[lls].but i guess i just love being in your presence.I'm not sure if im lusting after you or that your companionship excites me.these mysterious thoughts of you are conflicting with my human nature,but then again i don't even think i have true feelings because i don't see myself with you,i think its that i enjoy your company...i think its more so that i enjoy spending time with you & the connection we have is on a whole another..its like no other your a personality intrigues me..but i only get these feeling's when I'm around or thinking about you...i know this feeling must stem from somewhere..a place deep down inside..a place that i am unfamiliar with...IDK what it is about you but i DON'T LIKE it!!.sometimes i get a little jealous when your attention is another people.i don't mind it..i mean i know theres gonna be others i would just like you yo pay me more attention..mann im sounding clingy and shit & that's not me...you know what imma just get straight to the point...i feel like you only fuck with me when it's convenient for YOU.but i gotta realize people are never who you want them to be,people are flawed & have a mind to do as they please.no one is perfect..but anyways i feel like a rebound..like if nothing else fails you know I'll be there.i feel kind of taken for granted..i put you before allot of people..you know what..I'm gonna make myself scarce& less available..maybe i wont feel like im feeling if i dont stay in constant communication..but when all else fails i gotta just except that the relationship i want us to have will probably never be,and I'm OK & made piece with it..whatever..later
-Marleyy